May be I can't understand your problem, but you may think in a different way.Vanguarda wrote: Is very hard for me.
Currently i work on a company with cobol microfocus 4.1 (linux on text mode), but, i hate cobol. The company is cool, but cobol not is cool.
But anxiety is my fault. I've always been a very anxious person.
* COBOL is the first computer language I learned.
* I scored a record marks in COBOL in my institute (98%) .
* My submitted projects on COBOL were excellent.
* But I never worked on it in real life
* Unix (Linux was not born at that time) was the fist O/S I learned.
* I liked it very much.
* But I never worked on it in real life
* I was very bad in typing.
* I learned 10 fingers typing all by myself (hearing bad words from my clients and my ex-boss).
* But today is the age of Visual Programming
* You at least have a good company. I am self-employed. I have to take decision of my own. There is no one (except HMG Forum members) to help me out if I face any problem.
IMHO, you are working on an excellent O/S with richest computer language for business
* My ex-boss, Anando, learned only one language - COBOL.
* But he never got change to work with COBOL.
(Anando is now engaged in programming with HMG Ext )
Again as a friend, I can only tell what tennis coaches say- (as Timothy Gallway said) - keep your eye on the ball, try to love the ball, see it - it's texture, it's shape, it's trajectory.
IMHO, here your ball will be the project, the application you are going to generate - not the language, not the OS.
Sorry for this boring post.
With best regards.
Sudip